A Cool Breeze Blowing
A Cool Breeze Blowing
The sunlight filtered in through the bare windows looking out over the western wall of Fort Praesidium. Not for the first time, she was glad for the gentle introduction to the day. She stretched languidly under the loose covers and reached a hand instinctively to the other side of the bed, her eyes opening as she found it empty.
When he was with her, it was unmistakable. It was as if there was a magnet inside him that pulled at a companion within her own body. When they were together, it could not be resisted. At times like this though, when she was alone with Mateo’s smoky scent lingering on the pillows, she began to wonder.
She swung her legs off the edge of the bed and shrugged into a robe, padding barefoot on the deep carpeting. She focused on the orchid she had bought as a reminder that this was her home too, but she couldn’t shake that uncertainty. The feeling was the same, whether here in his lavish apartment or up north in his country house - she was a guest. She was here at his pleasure, and he could change his mind. Beneath the longing there was always fear.
That first night when he was still in the old flat, shortly before he moved into this apartment, he had set a key on a newspaper for her so she could let herself out when she was ready to go. Her curiosity being what it was, she read that paper talking about his blooming courtship with another woman and the seeds of doubt were sown. How many times had she asked about it? Each time, her fears would be swept away by the inevitable wave of passion and his reassurances.
“It was two dates, and it never went anywhere,” Mateo would tell her. “I haven’t seen her or heard from her in months.”
It always seemed plausible when he said it but then she would find herself alone in the homes they shared that were full of his things. The other woman’s name was carved on the pantry, and it was full of food she had prepared for him at one time. Seething with jealousy, she would take Mateo's coins from the kitchen drawer and visit that woman’s shops. Day after day she would buy the woman’s pies and steal away to drop them in the trash, standing over the barrel until the bin man came to collect it.
It was a small price to pay to keep Mateo out of those markets.
When he was with her, it was unmistakable. It was as if there was a magnet inside him that pulled at a companion within her own body. When they were together, it could not be resisted. At times like this though, when she was alone with Mateo’s smoky scent lingering on the pillows, she began to wonder.
She swung her legs off the edge of the bed and shrugged into a robe, padding barefoot on the deep carpeting. She focused on the orchid she had bought as a reminder that this was her home too, but she couldn’t shake that uncertainty. The feeling was the same, whether here in his lavish apartment or up north in his country house - she was a guest. She was here at his pleasure, and he could change his mind. Beneath the longing there was always fear.
That first night when he was still in the old flat, shortly before he moved into this apartment, he had set a key on a newspaper for her so she could let herself out when she was ready to go. Her curiosity being what it was, she read that paper talking about his blooming courtship with another woman and the seeds of doubt were sown. How many times had she asked about it? Each time, her fears would be swept away by the inevitable wave of passion and his reassurances.
“It was two dates, and it never went anywhere,” Mateo would tell her. “I haven’t seen her or heard from her in months.”
It always seemed plausible when he said it but then she would find herself alone in the homes they shared that were full of his things. The other woman’s name was carved on the pantry, and it was full of food she had prepared for him at one time. Seething with jealousy, she would take Mateo's coins from the kitchen drawer and visit that woman’s shops. Day after day she would buy the woman’s pies and steal away to drop them in the trash, standing over the barrel until the bin man came to collect it.
It was a small price to pay to keep Mateo out of those markets.
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
The streets were empty, the taverns were empty, the whole damn fort was empty. Again. She caught a glimpse of her reflection in a window, noting the shirt that had once belonged to the dead man. Maybe it had been callous of her to take it but now she wore it like a badge.
The disappointments were starting to stack, and her anger was building. People she'd meet once and never see again. People who said one thing and did another. Promises broken. She was finding it hard to gain a foothold as a new resident and was tired of being always alone.
"I have a message for you." His manners were cloying, his words dripping with honey. "He's not coming." He had the kind of straight teeth and perfect good looks that made you want to punch him in the face, even on a good day. This was not that day.
If she was honest, she wasn't really surprised. Thorne could be gruff, but she could see in his blushes that he was afraid of her.
"I got stood up again," she blurted out. "Are they all assholes?"
"Yeah, most of 'em," came the easy reply.
Then there he was, like a cold she couldn't shake. Mateo and his jokes, each one a barb directing attention away from some secret pain.
"Who stood you up this time? Was it me again?"
Inwardly she groaned but he had something she wanted. "Another asshole," she tossed at him. She'd have to play nice, but she didn't have to make it easy.
Unlike Thorne, Mateo did not blush, but she could see he was afraid of her too.
The disappointments were starting to stack, and her anger was building. People she'd meet once and never see again. People who said one thing and did another. Promises broken. She was finding it hard to gain a foothold as a new resident and was tired of being always alone.
"I have a message for you." His manners were cloying, his words dripping with honey. "He's not coming." He had the kind of straight teeth and perfect good looks that made you want to punch him in the face, even on a good day. This was not that day.
If she was honest, she wasn't really surprised. Thorne could be gruff, but she could see in his blushes that he was afraid of her.
"I got stood up again," she blurted out. "Are they all assholes?"
"Yeah, most of 'em," came the easy reply.
Then there he was, like a cold she couldn't shake. Mateo and his jokes, each one a barb directing attention away from some secret pain.
"Who stood you up this time? Was it me again?"
Inwardly she groaned but he had something she wanted. "Another asshole," she tossed at him. She'd have to play nice, but she didn't have to make it easy.
Unlike Thorne, Mateo did not blush, but she could see he was afraid of her too.
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
The setting sun bathed the room in golden light as she looked critically at her reflection in the mirror. Maybe it was the remnants of her upbringing that made her feel ugly or maybe the armor really was as ugly as she thought. Sometimes it was hard to separate herself from her past but Mateo was coming to take her hunting and she needed to be ready. This was not the time for doubt.
They had fallen into a rhythm and she knew the things he would need but would inevitably forget. She packed a basket with the essentials, ensuring there was enough for two. Then she waited. The light turned rosy as time passed. Mateo would be leaving the next day for a logging expedition but had made plans to spend this last evening with her.
Eventually the light dimmed to darkness. Filled with a familiar disappointed anticipation, she put away her armor and provisions and went to bed alone where she tossed sleeplessly until the night faded back to dawn. When she finally drifted off to sleep it was to the memory of her mother’s voice.
“No one wants you, Riah.”
She startled awake and looked at the empty space in the bed before shutting her eyes and letting the tears fall onto her pillow.
They had fallen into a rhythm and she knew the things he would need but would inevitably forget. She packed a basket with the essentials, ensuring there was enough for two. Then she waited. The light turned rosy as time passed. Mateo would be leaving the next day for a logging expedition but had made plans to spend this last evening with her.
Eventually the light dimmed to darkness. Filled with a familiar disappointed anticipation, she put away her armor and provisions and went to bed alone where she tossed sleeplessly until the night faded back to dawn. When she finally drifted off to sleep it was to the memory of her mother’s voice.
“No one wants you, Riah.”
She startled awake and looked at the empty space in the bed before shutting her eyes and letting the tears fall onto her pillow.
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
The snow crunched beneath her feet as she picked her way between the market stalls. She shivered in the cold, wrapping her cloak a little tighter, now missing the warmth of Mateo and his coat. Until this moment they had stood together in a place between two warring factions that they had carved out with their devotion to one another.
When he left to think, it had sounded so final. The sudden emptiness of their apartment and their bed was unbearable. The mute smith and the auditor had found her stumbling in the marketplace, her senses dulled with grief. She could barely comprehend as the mute conveyed her message - something about silver and the gretchens. The auditor called it an ambush and refused their company as he departed for the meeting.
The mute mercifully set her up in the attic and Thorne found her tearfully moving her things across the street. He stopped to help and to listen. He bought her a drink but was urgently called away. He had said to wait but never returned. So she sat there in familiar disappointment with only Eryn and the regulars for company until finally her drink was gone.
The next morning dawned grey and hopeless as she once again made her way idly through the market. Her attention was caught by a promising bushel of potatoes which she knew Mateo needed for his job managing the bar. She hefted the heavy sack up the two flights of stairs to the apartment they had left empty the night before. Struggling through the door with her burden, she was met with the sight of the apartment ransacked. She dropped the potatoes and ran.
Her first stop was the post office where she instinctively wrote to Mateo, begging him to return. In the few steps to the door of the post office, her confidence in Mateo crumbled. She turned back and sent a second letter to Thorne asking for his help too.
Her second stop was Mateo’s house to reassure herself of his safety. That’s where she found the note. She felt a great chasm open in the foundation of her world with the slow realization that Mateo had trashed their apartment, that he had deliberately terrified and hurt her.
There was nothing left but the mess to clean up. She packed up Mateo’s things and left the first load at his house with a note. “I love you. My heart is broken. ~Riah.” On the second trip she found him drunk on the floor hurling wild accusations at her through his stupor.
She had long known she was being followed because her stalkers had signaled their presence by terrorizing her. She knew anyone following her would find nothing but boredom so she had ignored it as best she could. She had assumed it was Avi and Connie behind it, trying to satisfy their curiosity about her friendship with Thorne. That Mateo may have been the one to arrange it was a new idea. Another new idea was the sudden eagerness to be away from him. She had some thinking of her own to do.
“You can’t go back. You aren’t safe in the fort,” Mateo had told her. His voice was gentle. “Stay here. Stay here with me.”
She looked at Mateo with new eyes. Yesterday at this time he had been the foundation of her whole life and now she could barely recognize him. Slowly the realization sunk in. She had nowhere else to go.
That night in bed as they lay talking, she tried to find a path back.
“I gave you a lot of power to hurt me with the trust you wouldn’t use it.”
She heard him swallow but he said nothing.
“But you used it.”
She lay there in the dark, wrapped up in the arms of a man she no longer knew. Her trust was betrayed, her heart truly and utterly shattered.
When he left to think, it had sounded so final. The sudden emptiness of their apartment and their bed was unbearable. The mute smith and the auditor had found her stumbling in the marketplace, her senses dulled with grief. She could barely comprehend as the mute conveyed her message - something about silver and the gretchens. The auditor called it an ambush and refused their company as he departed for the meeting.
The mute mercifully set her up in the attic and Thorne found her tearfully moving her things across the street. He stopped to help and to listen. He bought her a drink but was urgently called away. He had said to wait but never returned. So she sat there in familiar disappointment with only Eryn and the regulars for company until finally her drink was gone.
The next morning dawned grey and hopeless as she once again made her way idly through the market. Her attention was caught by a promising bushel of potatoes which she knew Mateo needed for his job managing the bar. She hefted the heavy sack up the two flights of stairs to the apartment they had left empty the night before. Struggling through the door with her burden, she was met with the sight of the apartment ransacked. She dropped the potatoes and ran.
Her first stop was the post office where she instinctively wrote to Mateo, begging him to return. In the few steps to the door of the post office, her confidence in Mateo crumbled. She turned back and sent a second letter to Thorne asking for his help too.
Her second stop was Mateo’s house to reassure herself of his safety. That’s where she found the note. She felt a great chasm open in the foundation of her world with the slow realization that Mateo had trashed their apartment, that he had deliberately terrified and hurt her.
There was nothing left but the mess to clean up. She packed up Mateo’s things and left the first load at his house with a note. “I love you. My heart is broken. ~Riah.” On the second trip she found him drunk on the floor hurling wild accusations at her through his stupor.
She had long known she was being followed because her stalkers had signaled their presence by terrorizing her. She knew anyone following her would find nothing but boredom so she had ignored it as best she could. She had assumed it was Avi and Connie behind it, trying to satisfy their curiosity about her friendship with Thorne. That Mateo may have been the one to arrange it was a new idea. Another new idea was the sudden eagerness to be away from him. She had some thinking of her own to do.
“You can’t go back. You aren’t safe in the fort,” Mateo had told her. His voice was gentle. “Stay here. Stay here with me.”
She looked at Mateo with new eyes. Yesterday at this time he had been the foundation of her whole life and now she could barely recognize him. Slowly the realization sunk in. She had nowhere else to go.
That night in bed as they lay talking, she tried to find a path back.
“I gave you a lot of power to hurt me with the trust you wouldn’t use it.”
She heard him swallow but he said nothing.
“But you used it.”
She lay there in the dark, wrapped up in the arms of a man she no longer knew. Her trust was betrayed, her heart truly and utterly shattered.
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
Her dirty face was streaked with tears, her nose running with blood-stained mucus, but her expression was defiant as she entered her family home.
“Now what?” Her mother snapped in her usual impatient tone.
“She’s hurt, Joon,” her grandmother said more softly. She turned to the small child then, arms open invitingly. “Come here, Habibi. Tell me what happened.”
The little girl began sobbing afresh as she was folded into the tender embrace, wiping her nose on her grandmother’s sleeve. Her grandmother remained silent, just holding the child until she had emptied herself of the rage and heartache. Once the girl was quiet, the older woman bathed her face with a cool cloth and held her again, repeating her gentle command, “Tell me what happened, Bibi.”
“They told Ziba not to be friends with me, Mamani,” she replied through a ragged breath, threatening another round of tears. “They said a girl with no father is a…”, she paused as if trying to remember the rest, her face screwed up into a confused expression, “... hamegi?," she added uncertainly. "No honor.”
The two women exchanged a silent look over the top of the child’s head.
“What happened to your nose, Bibi?” her grandmother asked.
“They made Ziba hit me,” she answered through a fresh snuffle of snot and tears. “To prove she wasn’t my friend anymore.”
Her mother looked at her with indifference, but her grandmother clicked her tongue disapprovingly and held the child close, rocking her lovingly. “I’m so sorry, Riah.”
“Now what?” Her mother snapped in her usual impatient tone.
“She’s hurt, Joon,” her grandmother said more softly. She turned to the small child then, arms open invitingly. “Come here, Habibi. Tell me what happened.”
The little girl began sobbing afresh as she was folded into the tender embrace, wiping her nose on her grandmother’s sleeve. Her grandmother remained silent, just holding the child until she had emptied herself of the rage and heartache. Once the girl was quiet, the older woman bathed her face with a cool cloth and held her again, repeating her gentle command, “Tell me what happened, Bibi.”
“They told Ziba not to be friends with me, Mamani,” she replied through a ragged breath, threatening another round of tears. “They said a girl with no father is a…”, she paused as if trying to remember the rest, her face screwed up into a confused expression, “... hamegi?," she added uncertainly. "No honor.”
The two women exchanged a silent look over the top of the child’s head.
“What happened to your nose, Bibi?” her grandmother asked.
“They made Ziba hit me,” she answered through a fresh snuffle of snot and tears. “To prove she wasn’t my friend anymore.”
Her mother looked at her with indifference, but her grandmother clicked her tongue disapprovingly and held the child close, rocking her lovingly. “I’m so sorry, Riah.”
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
“You coddle her, Mama,” the young woman griped at her mother.
“You are cruel to her, Joon. Riah’s only little and she’s your child,” the older woman scolded.
“She’s no child of mine. She ruined my life.”
****
The painful familiarity of longing and rejection playing out repeatedly in the never-ending accusations and demands to defend herself became more than she could bear. She slipped out of bed quietly before dawn and dressed in the dark. Leaving a gentle note, she took a last look at Mateo as he slept, and turned the key for what felt like the final time.
The separation could not be sustained long, she discovered. Without quite knowing how, she found herself morning after morning waking up in Mateo’s bed.
She took a brisk walk to clear her head and found Mateo fully armored and facing a slow moving mass. He warned her away just a moment too late. They managed to get help but it wasn’t enough. It would take days of planning to finally defeat the mass of worms as their infections slowly took hold.
“It’s just us,” she had said to him right before that final confrontation.
“Ain’t it always just us?”
His retort sounded jocular and she had laughed, but underneath was her persistent insecurity and doubt.
***
“She ruined my life, Mama,” the younger woman repeated.
The young woman had not known her child was within earshot or perhaps she just didn’t care.
****
She rang the doctor bell and knelt in front of Mateo, looking up at him with concern as his eyes swam with incomprehension. The minutes stretched on interminably as he became more confused. She moved to sit beside him, reaching for him instinctively though timidly. Wrapping her arms around him, she rocked him gently on the bench, softly singing a soothing Prodaian song she had heard in her childhood.
And she waited.
“You are cruel to her, Joon. Riah’s only little and she’s your child,” the older woman scolded.
“She’s no child of mine. She ruined my life.”
****
The painful familiarity of longing and rejection playing out repeatedly in the never-ending accusations and demands to defend herself became more than she could bear. She slipped out of bed quietly before dawn and dressed in the dark. Leaving a gentle note, she took a last look at Mateo as he slept, and turned the key for what felt like the final time.
The separation could not be sustained long, she discovered. Without quite knowing how, she found herself morning after morning waking up in Mateo’s bed.
She took a brisk walk to clear her head and found Mateo fully armored and facing a slow moving mass. He warned her away just a moment too late. They managed to get help but it wasn’t enough. It would take days of planning to finally defeat the mass of worms as their infections slowly took hold.
“It’s just us,” she had said to him right before that final confrontation.
“Ain’t it always just us?”
His retort sounded jocular and she had laughed, but underneath was her persistent insecurity and doubt.
***
“She ruined my life, Mama,” the younger woman repeated.
The young woman had not known her child was within earshot or perhaps she just didn’t care.
****
She rang the doctor bell and knelt in front of Mateo, looking up at him with concern as his eyes swam with incomprehension. The minutes stretched on interminably as he became more confused. She moved to sit beside him, reaching for him instinctively though timidly. Wrapping her arms around him, she rocked him gently on the bench, softly singing a soothing Prodaian song she had heard in her childhood.
And she waited.
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
“Where is the orb?” The thought was generally persistent and invasive, but now, encased in her nightmare, the orb offered her comfort.
The nausea surged as she opened her eyes. The darkness was absolute and she had to blink a few times to be sure her eyes were really open. A moment ago she had been going about her routine and she was trying to remember why chasing that sheep had seemed so important. Now she was engulfed in desolate darkness with nothing but her thoughts. In the absence of all other sensations, her mind was filled with words and images from her memory.
Her first thought was Mateo. She remembered decorating the solstice tree. The blissful warmth of the memory was visceral, but a moment later she could see that tree on its side, the ornaments scattered and broken like her heart.
From there her mind went to Thorne. “I love you, Riah,” he had said in a tone of finality as he kissed her forehead. “You have made me want to be a better man, to follow a different path.” His gaze was distant as if searching through the past. “Mateo is good. A strong, hearty man. A good home and a good man.” His gaze focused, looking deeply into her eyes. “I will be there if you need me, but being around me will only bring you trouble.”
Her eyes searched the piercing darkness and she wondered if she was actually conscious but her thoughts wandered again.
She was back in Prodai looking at the sneering face of the boy who always tormented her. Try as she might, his name escaped her, but she remembered the time he had snatched her hijab from her head, exposing her hair to shame her. He ran away with it to the safety of the madrassah where girls were not permitted. “Tereso!” she had shouted after him. She could hear the echoes of the other boys’ laughter fading as her mind shifted again.
“Snakebite.” She could hear the word tumble from the lips of so many people and she was trying to connect it to something that lurked just below the surface of her memory, but the more she reached for it, the further it slipped away.
There was Mateo again, holding a pie in one hand and feeding nurturing forkfuls of it to the wounded man convalescing in bed. The gesture was sweet and silly, yet she felt a surge of jealousy she couldn’t explain.
The darkness seemed to soften, almost pulsate. She blinked a few more times. Maybe her eyes were adjusting but she could swear pillars were rising from the floor to loom over her.
Another wave of nausea sent her thoughts back to Mateo holding her hair out of the way as she knelt on the floor, arms folded across the opening of the toilet and supporting her forehead as her body spasmed with retching. He had drawn her a hot bath, brought her a cool drink, loosened her corset, and helped her ease into the tub. She knew, as he fed her bites of cake while she soaked, that her passion was inescapable, yet she mourned the shattered trust between them.
She held up her lantern, squinting through the darkness. It seemed like figures were emerging atop the pillars and she could almost make out their shapes. They appeared to be statues rendered into forms of anguish with mouths agape, frozen in silent screams. The air thrummed with malevolence as unseen voices filled the air with discordant chanting.
“Where is the orb?” The thought cut through the noise, offering a tether back to her sanity, She fished a small, finely crafted sphere out of her bag and cradled it close to her body. She had rifled against Mateo’s ribbing about her obsession with the orb. As she tried to rebuild her trust, she was unable to endure his teasing, and she was never sorry she had commissioned the artisan to make it for her.
She tried to take a step but she was locked in place, surrounded by nightmarish shapes looming just beyond the shadows, menacing and predatory.
She clutched her sphere and she waited. With patience, time could fix almost anything.
The nausea surged as she opened her eyes. The darkness was absolute and she had to blink a few times to be sure her eyes were really open. A moment ago she had been going about her routine and she was trying to remember why chasing that sheep had seemed so important. Now she was engulfed in desolate darkness with nothing but her thoughts. In the absence of all other sensations, her mind was filled with words and images from her memory.
Her first thought was Mateo. She remembered decorating the solstice tree. The blissful warmth of the memory was visceral, but a moment later she could see that tree on its side, the ornaments scattered and broken like her heart.
From there her mind went to Thorne. “I love you, Riah,” he had said in a tone of finality as he kissed her forehead. “You have made me want to be a better man, to follow a different path.” His gaze was distant as if searching through the past. “Mateo is good. A strong, hearty man. A good home and a good man.” His gaze focused, looking deeply into her eyes. “I will be there if you need me, but being around me will only bring you trouble.”
Her eyes searched the piercing darkness and she wondered if she was actually conscious but her thoughts wandered again.
She was back in Prodai looking at the sneering face of the boy who always tormented her. Try as she might, his name escaped her, but she remembered the time he had snatched her hijab from her head, exposing her hair to shame her. He ran away with it to the safety of the madrassah where girls were not permitted. “Tereso!” she had shouted after him. She could hear the echoes of the other boys’ laughter fading as her mind shifted again.
“Snakebite.” She could hear the word tumble from the lips of so many people and she was trying to connect it to something that lurked just below the surface of her memory, but the more she reached for it, the further it slipped away.
There was Mateo again, holding a pie in one hand and feeding nurturing forkfuls of it to the wounded man convalescing in bed. The gesture was sweet and silly, yet she felt a surge of jealousy she couldn’t explain.
The darkness seemed to soften, almost pulsate. She blinked a few more times. Maybe her eyes were adjusting but she could swear pillars were rising from the floor to loom over her.
Another wave of nausea sent her thoughts back to Mateo holding her hair out of the way as she knelt on the floor, arms folded across the opening of the toilet and supporting her forehead as her body spasmed with retching. He had drawn her a hot bath, brought her a cool drink, loosened her corset, and helped her ease into the tub. She knew, as he fed her bites of cake while she soaked, that her passion was inescapable, yet she mourned the shattered trust between them.
She held up her lantern, squinting through the darkness. It seemed like figures were emerging atop the pillars and she could almost make out their shapes. They appeared to be statues rendered into forms of anguish with mouths agape, frozen in silent screams. The air thrummed with malevolence as unseen voices filled the air with discordant chanting.
“Where is the orb?” The thought cut through the noise, offering a tether back to her sanity, She fished a small, finely crafted sphere out of her bag and cradled it close to her body. She had rifled against Mateo’s ribbing about her obsession with the orb. As she tried to rebuild her trust, she was unable to endure his teasing, and she was never sorry she had commissioned the artisan to make it for her.
She tried to take a step but she was locked in place, surrounded by nightmarish shapes looming just beyond the shadows, menacing and predatory.
She clutched her sphere and she waited. With patience, time could fix almost anything.
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
“Why haven’t you gotten treatment yet?” Thorne crossed his arms over the expanse of his chest armor, looking sternly at her.
“There isn’t enough medicine for everyone,” was Riah’s patient reply.
Their relationship was complicated, built on early, unrequited attraction to one another and the subsequent missteps that resulted in a deeper bond as they worked out their differences and forged an honest friendship. He was there for her when no one else was, surpassing even Mateo in that regard. There were no demands between them, no conditions. The trust was absolute.
“You and Mateo come first. The rest don’t matter,” he told her in response. “Constantine has dead iron but he wants something from me in return. I’ll have to sell my soul to get it.”
*****
Drusilla caught Riah just as she was leaving, speaking to her with her head tilted to one side and her lips pressed into a small frown. “I was told you two would seek me out. Do you no longer require the Sindelar Surge Serum?”
Riah disregarded the frown, trying to allow the benefit of the doubt though she knew very well this woman had spoken against her to Mateo. “You were? We weren't told anything about it.The last I heard was Dr. Pepper was working on it. I gave her my dead iron.”
Drusilla’s brow furrowed and she looked the other woman up and down skeptically. “Ah, so Constantine did give you the dead iron?”
Riah took in the look, again dismissing it, as she pondered her reply. She had not expected this admission that Constantine was deliberately holding back the ingredients they needed and she debated whether to tell her what their source had been. “Well I don't have it any longer at any rate,” she responded with deliberate vagueness.
“So just to be clear, you do -not- want the Sindelar Surge Serum doses?”
“No, of course we want them. We've been waiting and waiting.”
“Doctor Sindelar said that the dead iron Constantine gave to you was enough for one dose. I've been waiting and coming up this way to try your door pretty frequently, “ Drusilla said with a demonstrative gesture towards the staircase.
Riah glanced at the stairs with a short nod, offering no explanation. She knew her dead iron was questionable and she was unsure where to get more. It certainly had not come from Constantine. “Dr. Sindelar told us we would need a series of doses and there wasn't enough to go around,” she said probatively.
Disregarding her words, Drusilla forged on, “I've only two doses left, and since you have enough for one dose yourself and I've three patients left to administer the serum, who would you sooner receive the free dose? Yourself or Mateo?”
The question was not unexpected. She knew she had turned over her deadiron for research with no expectations and no dose was coming to her. She also knew Mateo’s friends didn’t like her friendship with Thorne and this infection was an expedient way to marginalize her. It was an easy sacrifice to make and she did it without hesitation. “I would rather Mateo had it. But I don't think he will agree to it willingly. You can't tell him that I'm not getting a dose.”
Drusilla nodded faintly, lips pursed. “If that's what you wish. I'll hold on to it until I can administer it to Mateo then?”
“Yes, that would be my wish. And don't tell him until afterwards that I haven't got a dose for myself. He needs it more than I do and he would never agree.”
Drusilla made a vague gesture at her, “ I'm not in the business of making martyrs of anyone, Miss. And I'm aware of your…”
Riah responded with an expectant look, “My what?” Though the question went unanswered. “I’ll tell Mateo his dose is ready,” she finally replied before taking her leave.
*****
“Good morning, sunshine,” Riah said warmly to Mateo.
“Is it?” Mateo asked, blinking at her with blurry eyes as he stretched.
“Close enough not to argue about it,” she said as she followed him to the bathroom, leaning a hip against the doorframe and openly watching him. “I went up to the house and topped up the flag. Ran into Drusilla on my way out of the fort.”
Mateo yawned as he looked down into the toilet before turning to her, “Lucky you.”
“Anyway the serum is ready. She said we were supposed to be looking her up but I didn't know anything about it. And we were supposed to know about it apparently.”
Washing his hands, Mateo responded, “Oh were we now? I thought we were waiting for Sindelar the last month or more.”
“And she told me Constantine has dead iron,” she added as they made their way to the kitchen.
Mateo’s eyebrows raised at that. “Figures. Fucker has everything.”
“I wonder why he’s hoarding it though. That doesn’t help him at all. Now that it’s needed … I mean, even he needs it … I don’t get it.”
Mateo’s response was soft spoken and reasonable. “What makes you think he is hoarding it just because she said he has some?”
“Well I mean, that's been the hold up all this time. If we know it, how can he not know it? I think you should ask him about it.”
“There isn’t enough medicine for everyone,” was Riah’s patient reply.
Their relationship was complicated, built on early, unrequited attraction to one another and the subsequent missteps that resulted in a deeper bond as they worked out their differences and forged an honest friendship. He was there for her when no one else was, surpassing even Mateo in that regard. There were no demands between them, no conditions. The trust was absolute.
“You and Mateo come first. The rest don’t matter,” he told her in response. “Constantine has dead iron but he wants something from me in return. I’ll have to sell my soul to get it.”
*****
Drusilla caught Riah just as she was leaving, speaking to her with her head tilted to one side and her lips pressed into a small frown. “I was told you two would seek me out. Do you no longer require the Sindelar Surge Serum?”
Riah disregarded the frown, trying to allow the benefit of the doubt though she knew very well this woman had spoken against her to Mateo. “You were? We weren't told anything about it.The last I heard was Dr. Pepper was working on it. I gave her my dead iron.”
Drusilla’s brow furrowed and she looked the other woman up and down skeptically. “Ah, so Constantine did give you the dead iron?”
Riah took in the look, again dismissing it, as she pondered her reply. She had not expected this admission that Constantine was deliberately holding back the ingredients they needed and she debated whether to tell her what their source had been. “Well I don't have it any longer at any rate,” she responded with deliberate vagueness.
“So just to be clear, you do -not- want the Sindelar Surge Serum doses?”
“No, of course we want them. We've been waiting and waiting.”
“Doctor Sindelar said that the dead iron Constantine gave to you was enough for one dose. I've been waiting and coming up this way to try your door pretty frequently, “ Drusilla said with a demonstrative gesture towards the staircase.
Riah glanced at the stairs with a short nod, offering no explanation. She knew her dead iron was questionable and she was unsure where to get more. It certainly had not come from Constantine. “Dr. Sindelar told us we would need a series of doses and there wasn't enough to go around,” she said probatively.
Disregarding her words, Drusilla forged on, “I've only two doses left, and since you have enough for one dose yourself and I've three patients left to administer the serum, who would you sooner receive the free dose? Yourself or Mateo?”
The question was not unexpected. She knew she had turned over her deadiron for research with no expectations and no dose was coming to her. She also knew Mateo’s friends didn’t like her friendship with Thorne and this infection was an expedient way to marginalize her. It was an easy sacrifice to make and she did it without hesitation. “I would rather Mateo had it. But I don't think he will agree to it willingly. You can't tell him that I'm not getting a dose.”
Drusilla nodded faintly, lips pursed. “If that's what you wish. I'll hold on to it until I can administer it to Mateo then?”
“Yes, that would be my wish. And don't tell him until afterwards that I haven't got a dose for myself. He needs it more than I do and he would never agree.”
Drusilla made a vague gesture at her, “ I'm not in the business of making martyrs of anyone, Miss. And I'm aware of your…”
Riah responded with an expectant look, “My what?” Though the question went unanswered. “I’ll tell Mateo his dose is ready,” she finally replied before taking her leave.
*****
“Good morning, sunshine,” Riah said warmly to Mateo.
“Is it?” Mateo asked, blinking at her with blurry eyes as he stretched.
“Close enough not to argue about it,” she said as she followed him to the bathroom, leaning a hip against the doorframe and openly watching him. “I went up to the house and topped up the flag. Ran into Drusilla on my way out of the fort.”
Mateo yawned as he looked down into the toilet before turning to her, “Lucky you.”
“Anyway the serum is ready. She said we were supposed to be looking her up but I didn't know anything about it. And we were supposed to know about it apparently.”
Washing his hands, Mateo responded, “Oh were we now? I thought we were waiting for Sindelar the last month or more.”
“And she told me Constantine has dead iron,” she added as they made their way to the kitchen.
Mateo’s eyebrows raised at that. “Figures. Fucker has everything.”
“I wonder why he’s hoarding it though. That doesn’t help him at all. Now that it’s needed … I mean, even he needs it … I don’t get it.”
Mateo’s response was soft spoken and reasonable. “What makes you think he is hoarding it just because she said he has some?”
“Well I mean, that's been the hold up all this time. If we know it, how can he not know it? I think you should ask him about it.”
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
Then came the letters, insistent, demanding, and escalating in tone, one every few days, but Mateo refused to answer them.
*****
The day started like any other, with quiet conversation in the bathroom.
“You too hungover to take me out?”
“No, we’re going out. Somewhere,” Mateo answered her in his sleepy voice as he finished his morning ablutions.
They agreed to start the day shopping for essentials, navigating the stalls in their intimate domestic routine.
“Oh I see she restocked. I checked this morning for a few things. I’m sorry I missed her,” she said, with a searching look around the vicinity.
“Missed who?” Mateo asked.
“Lucretia,” came her reply.
“We looking for her?” Mateo asked again.
“Well … yeah,” she responded softly.
“Me?” A voice carried from just beyond her sight.
“Found her,” Mateo joked.
They exchanged easy pleasantries, Riah and Mateo sharing a secret look as Lucretia referred to them as “lovebirds.”
“Mateo had something he wanted to talk to you about though,” she said plainly.
Lucretia murmured her response, “Mhhh?”
Mateo was caught momentarily off guard. “I did? Ohh.. Assume..Riah means about worm serums..”
“Oh not this again,” Lucretia responded. “I’ve just made the prototype.”
“Something the matter with the serums?” Mateo asked. “I got these letters … from Drusilla…”
Riah alerted at the mention of letters, “I forgot to check if I got any,” she said, slipping out to the post office. She returned with a shake of her head and empty hands, picking up the thread of the conversation.
“But apparently she claims Drusilla gave her a choice,” she heard Mateo say. “To give me one.. and not her. I would like to know what, if anything, you would need to make another dose or if there’s anything else that can be done.”
“I’ve got everything I need to make a dose. I can treat you both if needed,” came Lucretia’s astonishing reply.
Mateo looked at Riah with eyebrows raised in surprise. “Why would they play with something as such..for some.. gain.. or ..control?”
“I haven't been at the last two meetings,” Lucretia explained. “Maybe they had problems. I can’t tell. Let me just go fetch the dead iron you gave me the other day. I’ll be right back.”
Once they were alone, Mateo gave Riah a slanted look. “Ain’t that something?”
“Yeah,” she responded. “Go figure.”
*****
Mateo smacked his lips in a slow yawn, his hair tousled and messy as he got out of bed.
“I was looking at the letters from Drusilla,” Riah told him. “Seems like we need to get a series of doses. She called it a booster.”
“Bitch,” Mateo swore lightly as he reached for some water, making Riah laugh. “I don’t know,” he added after a moment, “Maybe we should speak with Pepperdew bout that. I still ain’t went and seen Drusilla.”
“Well let's write her a letter. Tell her to give your dose to Marilla,” she said. “Settle that argument.”
His tone was deflated, “Maybe I should see her … finally … “
“Alright, if you want to,” she responded. “She couldn't get out of the church fast enough the other night when she saw us.”
“Ain't that funny how that goes?” Mateo asked. “Swear up and down they are lookin for you.. then run when they see you.”
*****
The day started like any other, with quiet conversation in the bathroom.
“You too hungover to take me out?”
“No, we’re going out. Somewhere,” Mateo answered her in his sleepy voice as he finished his morning ablutions.
They agreed to start the day shopping for essentials, navigating the stalls in their intimate domestic routine.
“Oh I see she restocked. I checked this morning for a few things. I’m sorry I missed her,” she said, with a searching look around the vicinity.
“Missed who?” Mateo asked.
“Lucretia,” came her reply.
“We looking for her?” Mateo asked again.
“Well … yeah,” she responded softly.
“Me?” A voice carried from just beyond her sight.
“Found her,” Mateo joked.
They exchanged easy pleasantries, Riah and Mateo sharing a secret look as Lucretia referred to them as “lovebirds.”
“Mateo had something he wanted to talk to you about though,” she said plainly.
Lucretia murmured her response, “Mhhh?”
Mateo was caught momentarily off guard. “I did? Ohh.. Assume..Riah means about worm serums..”
“Oh not this again,” Lucretia responded. “I’ve just made the prototype.”
“Something the matter with the serums?” Mateo asked. “I got these letters … from Drusilla…”
Riah alerted at the mention of letters, “I forgot to check if I got any,” she said, slipping out to the post office. She returned with a shake of her head and empty hands, picking up the thread of the conversation.
“But apparently she claims Drusilla gave her a choice,” she heard Mateo say. “To give me one.. and not her. I would like to know what, if anything, you would need to make another dose or if there’s anything else that can be done.”
“I’ve got everything I need to make a dose. I can treat you both if needed,” came Lucretia’s astonishing reply.
Mateo looked at Riah with eyebrows raised in surprise. “Why would they play with something as such..for some.. gain.. or ..control?”
“I haven't been at the last two meetings,” Lucretia explained. “Maybe they had problems. I can’t tell. Let me just go fetch the dead iron you gave me the other day. I’ll be right back.”
Once they were alone, Mateo gave Riah a slanted look. “Ain’t that something?”
“Yeah,” she responded. “Go figure.”
*****
Mateo smacked his lips in a slow yawn, his hair tousled and messy as he got out of bed.
“I was looking at the letters from Drusilla,” Riah told him. “Seems like we need to get a series of doses. She called it a booster.”
“Bitch,” Mateo swore lightly as he reached for some water, making Riah laugh. “I don’t know,” he added after a moment, “Maybe we should speak with Pepperdew bout that. I still ain’t went and seen Drusilla.”
“Well let's write her a letter. Tell her to give your dose to Marilla,” she said. “Settle that argument.”
His tone was deflated, “Maybe I should see her … finally … “
“Alright, if you want to,” she responded. “She couldn't get out of the church fast enough the other night when she saw us.”
“Ain't that funny how that goes?” Mateo asked. “Swear up and down they are lookin for you.. then run when they see you.”
Re: A Cool Breeze Blowing
She bundled up against the cold and picked her way carefully down the snowy street, stopping when she saw a familiar form looking a little lost. “Hey Teo. How you feeling?” she asked him.
He smiled pleasantly enough in return and asked, “Who?” as he looked about.
“You,” she responded.
“Mette,” he said, pointing at his own chest.
The surge infection was hitting him faster and harder than it was her and she was constantly worried, but she masked the fear in her response, managing a casual tone. “Oh yes. Jakobsen, right?”
He nodded at that and replied politely, “I’m sorry … I didn’t catch your name miss…”
“Well, how are you feeling, Mette? I am Riah,” she responded quietly.
“Ahh… Riah. I am well enough I do suppose… little … ehh… foggy?”
“I hate it when that happens,” she said with forced humor she didn’t feel. “C’mon, I’ll buy you a drink.”
It wasn’t the first time Mateo’s memory was affected by the infection and the turmeric had always helped before if she could only get him to drink it. She bought a couple tonics and led him to the tavern to sit while he drank.
“That’s a sweet cider and a honey tea,” she explained. “Almost like mead when you have them together,” she said with an encouraging nod though he sniffed it suspiciously. “It’s not bad, really. Homemade,” she said before lowering her voice. “And better than the stuff they serve here,” she whispered conspiratorially as she pointed a thumb towards the bar. “Eryn has other attractions, though” she added with a playful wink, trying to keep the mood light as he took a swig of each.
“Absolutely nothing like good mead,” Mateo said.
“Sorry baby,” she said with a chuckle. “You’ll thank me for it later.” Riah brushed a hand familiarly over his shoulder, “You look very nice,” she said, hoping the gesture would trip a memory and bring him back.
“Yeah, I uh …” Mateo looked down over his vestiges. “I don’t usually dress like this.”
“No?” Riah grinned openly at him. “Please tell me you usually go shirtless.”
Mateo’s brow furrowed and he shook his head, “Nah, I don’t know exactly where I got these. Well, in summer I chop wood shirtless … I guess…”
“Yes please,” Riah said in a bold tone with a bounce of her eyebrows, still trying to get him to remember her.
“Where is the tessarius?” Mateo asked her. “Have you seen him today? Tessarius Cassini? Do you know where his chambers are, by chance?”
“I do know where Cassini lives, yes,” she replied evasively. “Finish your drink first though.”
“You uh…,” Mateo looked concerned. “You alright miss?”
Riah was also battling the effects of the infection, her thoughts slipping away as she tried to hold onto her own memory. She looked at him with momentary confusion then nodded and covered her face with her hands. “Yes, I hope so,” she said, trying to keep the panic at bay.
“I’d appreciate it if you would lead me to the Tessarius’ chambers,” Mateo said.
“I’ll take you to Cassini’s place,” she said with a nod. “How you doing with that drink?”
“I’m not all that thirsty,” he said, looking into the cup.
“Doctor says we need the turmeric, baby. Please drink it,” she begged.
He looked at her with a quirked brow. “You call everybody baby where you come from?”
“No,” she said flatly, offering no further explanation. Not knowing what else to try and feeling unwell herself, she simply walked him home and nodded to the door. “Try it. You should have a key.”
He seemed skeptical as he patted around his pockets. “I don’t even…,” then seemed surprised as he produced a ring of keys. Riah gave him a nod of encouragement and he tried several keys before one finally twisted in the lock. “Odd,” he said as he swung the door open and called out questioningly, “Alexander?” He looked around, “This is not the Tessarius’ quarters.”
“No,” she admitted. “A different Cassini lives here. It will come to you in a minute.”
His brows furrowed in confusion. “What do you mean?”
“Hmm… it’s hard to explain,” she replied. “I wish I could jog your memory.” She looked around the newly redecorated apartment, inwardly cursing the changes that made it hard to recognize. “There is one thing,” she said as she opened the door to the adjoining room. “Maybe the fireplace is familiar?” Mateo held his ground but looked off towards the other room, craning his neck to see into the bedroom. “It’s the only thing we didn’t change,” she explained.
“That bed looks more comfortable than Alexander’s,” he said. “I could really lie down. You mind if I rest here?”
“We used to have furs on the floor,” she told him. “But we had a fight and I got rid of them. That’s your bed.”
“A fight? Me and you?” he asked her with a chuckle. “Why would we get in a fight?”
“Well, it was your fault,” she answered with a chuckle of her own.
Mateo sat on the bed, smoothing out the blanket while Riah joined him at a comfortable distance, sitting on the edge.
“Take a good look at me,” Riah said to him pleadingly. “Do you not know me at all?”
Mateo focused his eyes on her. “You’re Riah,” he said simply.
“Take another look. Or here … I have another idea,” she said, leading him to the bathroom. “Take a look at yourself. See how your own face is different?”
Mateo turned his head this way and that as he looked at his reflection. “Getting scruffy,” he said as touched the side of his cheek.
“And older,” Riah said hopefully.
Mateo’s brow furrowed as he looked first over the scars on his nose and then over his chest, seeing it quite bigger than he expected. “What magic is this that I can look into the future? None of this makes any sense.”
“I know. It’s the worms,” Riah told him. “You got more exposed than me. You got sick faster than me.”
“Worms? Telling me I got worms?”
“We both do. Or some illness that the worms caused.”
“I really could lie down, I think,” Mateo said. “My head is splitting, and I don’t understand any of this. You mind if I sleep here for a bit?”
“It’s your bed,” Riah replied helplessly as she followed him to the bedroom. “It’s your home.”
Mateo laid down, folding his hands over his chest and drawing up his right knee to make room for Riah who sat on the edge of the bed, not too close.
“I’m sure Alexander can straighten this all out in the morning,” Mateo said, adding after a moment, “If we can find him.”
Riah nodded at him, eyes a little too bright. “You’re safe here. You’re safe with me.”
“I think I could just rest right here, if that’s alright,” Mateo said as he closed his eyes and started to breathe deeply.
“Mettte…?” Riah’s voice was soft and hesitant, her eyes downcast. “I know you don’t remember, but usually we share this bed.”
Mateo chuckled uneasily. “Usually?”
“Okay, not usually,” she said more firmly as she pushed off her boots with her opposite toes. “We share this bed.”
Mateo raised his eyebrows but answered calmly. “Well, it’s your bed. I don’t mind sharing it.”
Riah’s eyes were wet, and her lip quivered as she answered him. “If these are our last days, I want to be near you.” A single tear escaped, tracing a trail down her right cheek.
Mateo looked confused and afraid, causing Riah to regret her words. “Why would it be my last days? Are we leaving?”
“I just want to be near you,” Riah said softly as a few more tears spilled out. “And I’m sorry you don’t remember why.”
He smiled pleasantly enough in return and asked, “Who?” as he looked about.
“You,” she responded.
“Mette,” he said, pointing at his own chest.
The surge infection was hitting him faster and harder than it was her and she was constantly worried, but she masked the fear in her response, managing a casual tone. “Oh yes. Jakobsen, right?”
He nodded at that and replied politely, “I’m sorry … I didn’t catch your name miss…”
“Well, how are you feeling, Mette? I am Riah,” she responded quietly.
“Ahh… Riah. I am well enough I do suppose… little … ehh… foggy?”
“I hate it when that happens,” she said with forced humor she didn’t feel. “C’mon, I’ll buy you a drink.”
It wasn’t the first time Mateo’s memory was affected by the infection and the turmeric had always helped before if she could only get him to drink it. She bought a couple tonics and led him to the tavern to sit while he drank.
“That’s a sweet cider and a honey tea,” she explained. “Almost like mead when you have them together,” she said with an encouraging nod though he sniffed it suspiciously. “It’s not bad, really. Homemade,” she said before lowering her voice. “And better than the stuff they serve here,” she whispered conspiratorially as she pointed a thumb towards the bar. “Eryn has other attractions, though” she added with a playful wink, trying to keep the mood light as he took a swig of each.
“Absolutely nothing like good mead,” Mateo said.
“Sorry baby,” she said with a chuckle. “You’ll thank me for it later.” Riah brushed a hand familiarly over his shoulder, “You look very nice,” she said, hoping the gesture would trip a memory and bring him back.
“Yeah, I uh …” Mateo looked down over his vestiges. “I don’t usually dress like this.”
“No?” Riah grinned openly at him. “Please tell me you usually go shirtless.”
Mateo’s brow furrowed and he shook his head, “Nah, I don’t know exactly where I got these. Well, in summer I chop wood shirtless … I guess…”
“Yes please,” Riah said in a bold tone with a bounce of her eyebrows, still trying to get him to remember her.
“Where is the tessarius?” Mateo asked her. “Have you seen him today? Tessarius Cassini? Do you know where his chambers are, by chance?”
“I do know where Cassini lives, yes,” she replied evasively. “Finish your drink first though.”
“You uh…,” Mateo looked concerned. “You alright miss?”
Riah was also battling the effects of the infection, her thoughts slipping away as she tried to hold onto her own memory. She looked at him with momentary confusion then nodded and covered her face with her hands. “Yes, I hope so,” she said, trying to keep the panic at bay.
“I’d appreciate it if you would lead me to the Tessarius’ chambers,” Mateo said.
“I’ll take you to Cassini’s place,” she said with a nod. “How you doing with that drink?”
“I’m not all that thirsty,” he said, looking into the cup.
“Doctor says we need the turmeric, baby. Please drink it,” she begged.
He looked at her with a quirked brow. “You call everybody baby where you come from?”
“No,” she said flatly, offering no further explanation. Not knowing what else to try and feeling unwell herself, she simply walked him home and nodded to the door. “Try it. You should have a key.”
He seemed skeptical as he patted around his pockets. “I don’t even…,” then seemed surprised as he produced a ring of keys. Riah gave him a nod of encouragement and he tried several keys before one finally twisted in the lock. “Odd,” he said as he swung the door open and called out questioningly, “Alexander?” He looked around, “This is not the Tessarius’ quarters.”
“No,” she admitted. “A different Cassini lives here. It will come to you in a minute.”
His brows furrowed in confusion. “What do you mean?”
“Hmm… it’s hard to explain,” she replied. “I wish I could jog your memory.” She looked around the newly redecorated apartment, inwardly cursing the changes that made it hard to recognize. “There is one thing,” she said as she opened the door to the adjoining room. “Maybe the fireplace is familiar?” Mateo held his ground but looked off towards the other room, craning his neck to see into the bedroom. “It’s the only thing we didn’t change,” she explained.
“That bed looks more comfortable than Alexander’s,” he said. “I could really lie down. You mind if I rest here?”
“We used to have furs on the floor,” she told him. “But we had a fight and I got rid of them. That’s your bed.”
“A fight? Me and you?” he asked her with a chuckle. “Why would we get in a fight?”
“Well, it was your fault,” she answered with a chuckle of her own.
Mateo sat on the bed, smoothing out the blanket while Riah joined him at a comfortable distance, sitting on the edge.
“Take a good look at me,” Riah said to him pleadingly. “Do you not know me at all?”
Mateo focused his eyes on her. “You’re Riah,” he said simply.
“Take another look. Or here … I have another idea,” she said, leading him to the bathroom. “Take a look at yourself. See how your own face is different?”
Mateo turned his head this way and that as he looked at his reflection. “Getting scruffy,” he said as touched the side of his cheek.
“And older,” Riah said hopefully.
Mateo’s brow furrowed as he looked first over the scars on his nose and then over his chest, seeing it quite bigger than he expected. “What magic is this that I can look into the future? None of this makes any sense.”
“I know. It’s the worms,” Riah told him. “You got more exposed than me. You got sick faster than me.”
“Worms? Telling me I got worms?”
“We both do. Or some illness that the worms caused.”
“I really could lie down, I think,” Mateo said. “My head is splitting, and I don’t understand any of this. You mind if I sleep here for a bit?”
“It’s your bed,” Riah replied helplessly as she followed him to the bedroom. “It’s your home.”
Mateo laid down, folding his hands over his chest and drawing up his right knee to make room for Riah who sat on the edge of the bed, not too close.
“I’m sure Alexander can straighten this all out in the morning,” Mateo said, adding after a moment, “If we can find him.”
Riah nodded at him, eyes a little too bright. “You’re safe here. You’re safe with me.”
“I think I could just rest right here, if that’s alright,” Mateo said as he closed his eyes and started to breathe deeply.
“Mettte…?” Riah’s voice was soft and hesitant, her eyes downcast. “I know you don’t remember, but usually we share this bed.”
Mateo chuckled uneasily. “Usually?”
“Okay, not usually,” she said more firmly as she pushed off her boots with her opposite toes. “We share this bed.”
Mateo raised his eyebrows but answered calmly. “Well, it’s your bed. I don’t mind sharing it.”
Riah’s eyes were wet, and her lip quivered as she answered him. “If these are our last days, I want to be near you.” A single tear escaped, tracing a trail down her right cheek.
Mateo looked confused and afraid, causing Riah to regret her words. “Why would it be my last days? Are we leaving?”
“I just want to be near you,” Riah said softly as a few more tears spilled out. “And I’m sorry you don’t remember why.”